This post isn’t as much a post as it is a letter of an apology, since this blog has been public, the apology should be as well.
To everyone who has read this I am deeply sorry, have been unaware how I have been coming across to people. My zeal to talk about the things I have been passionate made me lose sight of the heart of all proper exhortation Christian love.
I was more zealous for conviction, than actually exhorting the body of Christ; my intention was never to come across as being judgmental or self-righteous, but I realize I have done just that. They (my posts) were never meant to be forced as truth or be presented as a salvation issue; my personal conviction is just that, mine. The way I went about it presenting my posts was in serious error; I am sorry. Jesus Christ has shown me how I have come across to people, and how I have acted, even though my intentions have somewhat been well, how I still ended up sinning by doing it more for zeal than love. No one will answer to me for their life on earth, as I will not answer to anyone else.
“Who are you to judge another’s servant? To his own master he stands or falls. Indeed, he will be made to stand for God is able to make him stand.” Romans 14:4 nkjv
Worst of all, I was not being a good representative of Christ, for this my heart aches the most. I focused so much on what was wrong and bad, what you shouldn’t be doing, without ever giving hope, the Gospel which is forgiveness of sins and eternal life to those who repent and believe. I know I have unintentionally done things to isolate others from me and have been hypocritical in my actions. I claimed to love, bet set up an impossible bar that I would not even desire myself to be held too. All I can say to anyone is I am sorry, not sorry for the content of what I said or typed, but the heart and motive I had in doing so, being more worried about sacrifice than obedience, I acted outside of Christian love and am deeply sorry to anyone that may have felt hurt.
I am human who still is sinful; it is only by the grace of God through His Son that I am even saved. God convicted me yesterday of my motives in serving Him and broke me last night, but I want to let everyone know how sorry I am and let everyone know that Jesus Christ is joy and love, His mercy is beyond all knowledge and comprehension, His love knows no bounds and His blessings to those who believe are without bounds. He lifts up the broken hearted, He is a father to the fatherless, a comforter to those who mourn, the Bread of Life and Spring of Life to those who hunger and thirst, the freedom to those who are in bondage, a light to those in darkness, the strength of those who are weak, faithful to the faithless, joy to the broken hearted and the exalter of the truly humble. That is my God, holy and just, set apart from all creation, rich in mercies and love, yet just and the judge of all sin; he is the infinite One, who sent His only Son to die for all mankind, for His glory and our salvation, he gave us the Bible and His Holy Spirit to guide us in all truth, growing us in holiness and justifying us from our sins. He is the hope, He is the truth, He is our savior Jesus Christ. Let Him receive all the glory forever and ever. Amen!
My heart pains for the iniquity that I have committed in losing sight of what the word “exhortation” even means; it is no wonder that they are the loneliest of all, no one wants to be in the presence of one who is so critical all the time, acting as if there is no joy, which in itself is a blasphemy against God. Who commands us to be joyful, it is just so hard to balance between having Jesus Christ first, but at the same time not becoming self-righteous and forgetting the body of Christ we are supposed to attend to.
Please, forgive me for making things serious, It would be better for me to be quiet and save myself wrath than to speak out and be wrong, putting myself in a place of judgment. Again, I just say I am so sorry to everyone. I want to repent and learn to better serve Christ from this experience than just wallowing in a "Ooh poor me" mentality and thus become prideful and negate any good work of God out of this.
Exhortation:
1. The act or an instance of exhorting.
2. A speech or discourse that encourages, incites, or earnestly advises.
“So then, my beloved brethren, let every man be swift to hear, slow to speak, slow to wrath, for the wrath of man does not produce the righteousness of God.” James 2:19
“Though I speak with the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I have become sounding brass or a clanging cymbal.” – 1st Corinthians 13:1
“Love suffers long [and] is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek its own, is not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in iniquity, but rejoices in the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails. But whether [there are] prophecies, they will fail; whether [there are] tongues, they will cease; whether [there is] knowledge, it will vanish away.” 1st Corinthians 13:4-8
“Let all [that] you [do] be done with love.” 1 Corinthians 16:14
“And above all things have fervent love for one another, for ‘love will cover a multitude of sins.’” 1st Peter 4:8
“Therefore you are inexcusable, O man, whoever you are who judge, for in whatever you judge another you condemn yourself; for you who judge practice the same things.” Romans 2:1
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Wow talk about conviction. It is amazing to see such humility. Though what you have said was not wrong, I do know we should let others make their own choices. It is hard to care so much for someone and see them head down a path that you know is wrong. Be unable to stop them.
ReplyDeleteEveryday I think of your uncle. How I pray he will see the truth someday.
Still all we have to do is warn them, they will answer for why they did not listen. It is only if we fail to warn them are we held accountable. Knowing where to stop is the hard part, I should know. However I can see God is obviously teaching you that.
Again such humility is a rare thing in todays culture.
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