Life

I have not written a post in over a month, wow! I think that is the longest duration of absence I have gone without an entry. To be honest though I have been suffering from a "blogger's block" of sorts, so I want to try something different here...

It should start with one waking up in the morning praising God for being alive another day, counting the blessing that you didn't awake in Hell today. That's how it should start... What you find though as you awake is the war the same as you left it, you went to bed with the stench of war and you arise to the same. Satan greets you in the morning to see whether he can get your first thoughts off of God; "it's a monday," "I need to run an errand this day," "will my circumstances ever get better?" While God is left in the back of the mind for more trivial and lowly things. We should awake screaming the holiness of His name and His Son's, instead I find my days entering into the same war I fought today, and the day before that, and the day before that...

The Bible only furthers to convict me of this helpless state I am in, forcing me to realize that this war can never be won by me, nor can it by any man. Giving me the hope though that Jesus Christ has, is and will win this war; it is my job to endure through His strength, using that spiritual armor He has given me, always in prayer for endurance and patience. Sanctified and justified, I desire to grow in holiness, but every time I move closer the beast comes closer to try and pull me further, I have screamed out and cried before God for mercy and deliverance, praying that I might truly repent of my sins and never return to them. When you starve the beast of the food of the flesh, it fights harder and stronger to get back what was his; but Christ dwells in the temple now where NO ONE or NOTHING else can dwell! My failures, though, are greater than my victories; bent and broken I cry out to God in shambles while wondering why Christ even wastes His time on such as I. In those moments, Christ removes more and more of my pride, instills fear to truly repent, but is gracious and shows that the problem is me! I have been trying to do it, I was trying to fix it, when all the time Christ had and was the answer all along!

Who has told me a christians walk will give me my best life now? How can one even DARE say such a thing to me when my brothers left and right and being slaughtered over this world, in India, in Saudi Arabia, in Indonesia, in Iraq, in Iran, in Sudan, in Egypt, and everywhere else... While "Western persecution" that of demonic heresies that threaten one's spiritual life and being shut out from society. One who says such a thing is not only wrong but spits upon the very words of Jesus Christ who promised us nothing BUT persecution, trials, temptations, struggles and executions; but gives us the joy of His strength to the furtherance of His glory and His Kingdom. Everything else tramples upon the spiritual joy of His promise and replaces with a man-made, lukewarm, "promise" that does nothing but reassure someone of false ideal while keeping the individual on a path of unbelief and damnation. What happens when the individual faces trials? When the promises they were promised do not happen, " I was promised prosperity and riches, where is my best life now? God, you need to uphold YOUR end of the deal!" How insolent we are! God gave us the one thing most precious to Him to save mankind for His glory, and we dare shake our fists and take up a case against God for lying?! Let God be true and every man a liar!

As time goes on I am ever more in agreement with Paul and God Almighty on how wretched and disgusting I am. Every thing that may be perceived as good in my life is still filled with sin; Paul never expressed this dichotomy better than when saying:

Romans 7:18-20 nkjv

"For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh) nothing good dwells; for to will is present with me, but how to perform what is good I do not find. For the good that I will to do, I do not do; but the evil I will not to do, that I practice. Now if I do what I will not to do, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells in me. "

We are not to use our grace as an excuse to continue sinning, for to do so is in error and false understanding of Christ. It gives us a glimpse though that a christian walk is not salvation through perfection, or what we do to make God save us, or what salvation plus works. It is salvation in spite of this conflict, in spite of how wretched we are, he still offers it to all men by grace, through repentance and correct faith. We can never achieve it ourselves, God has given to us for free, but it is free BECAUSE of what Christ did, outside of Him there is no other hope. HE is the WAY, the TRUTH and the LIFE! Facts about Christ won't save you, church won't save you, reading the Bible and prayer does not save you, Christ the person saves you. One hundred percent God and one hundred percent God.


For awhile I was in the same boat, I was unrepentant of many sins I had in my life; sure I was all sorry after I did them, but I never really tried to turn away from them, nor did I really despise them. I knew facts about God, but never really had a full relationship with God; it does not mean I am perfect now, I never will be. If you are in the same boat, if you say you are a christian, but have continual sin in your life; PLEASE repent and put it away! Now is not the time to put this stuff off, I cannot save anyone, that is the Holy Spirit's job, but I can say "hey, according to God's Word, you are not truly saved." And, if you are not even a christian, please, consider that your soul is at stake, and you will stand before a Judge far holier and far more just than any courtroom on Earth. According to God's standards (the Ten Commandments) we are guilty and damned to an eternity in Hell with Satan and his angels; we are sinners before a Holy God and we without Christ we will stand before Him as rebels and criminals, rebellion and murder will be our hands! You must be born again to be saved, you must die to your old self and put on a new one; humble yourselves and He will lift you up, and pride will negate the potential work of God in your lives, take this advice from someone who has struggled (God is still working out the pride within me) with pride, it MUST die! All in all, it is up to the Holy Spirit to convict each men, I just pray you do not harden your heart against Him...

To Christ be the glory for ever and ever. Amen!